Crash & Live

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Why?
Well, sometimes your heart just fills up with great joy- and you want to talk about how wonderful and grateful you are for life! I'm so thankful for the great love of Jesus that fills my heart up with joy and love and expectation. 

Today, I want to tell you about an experience I experienced in August of this past year (August 2015). 

In August of 2015, I went to Brookfield to take an exam for my teaching certification. The exam was called Praxis II. I was fairly confident that I would pass the exam. After all, I've never had a problem passing tests or doing well in school. After the end of the two hour test, I walked out and my eyes looked down onto the white and black printed paper. I stared at the score on the paper. 

-I failed-

In disappointment, I began to travel home. That evening was a women's event that my cousin, my mom and I were attending in Milwaukee. The conference was called Living Proof Live (lproof.org) by Beth Moore. I had to make sure I got home on time for the conference. In the summer heat, I began to feel thirsty and tired and considered getting off the road for a drink, however, because of the time frame- I decided to skip it and keep on driving. A choice now, I look back on and wish I would have followed through with. I strongly believe God has a reason for everything and so I trust God through my experiences in life. As I approached the interstate exit, I was thankful to be almost home. My car swirled around the ramp and stopped at the stop sign. I got off the interstate and continued to drive straight- finally- almost home. That's when it all happened- 

I look to my right and I see a car fastly approaching where my car would be in just a few split seconds. Mentally I stream through the possibilities of what I could do- should I speed up? Should I slow down? ...But then I reached a conclusion- whatever I do- isn't going to work- She's going to hit me. When I came to this quick conclusion- there was only time for one thing. I said to God, "God, please help us be okay." 

And just like that- our cars crashed- 

I'll never forget the feeling after that moment when I remembered my prayer to God. I said, "I'm okay""- Thank you so much God" - and then I ran over to the other car to make sure she was okay. She was okay- so I felt relieved in some kind of way. 

The next moments were stressful- waiting for the police officer to come- there was a random person trying to tell me to move my car (which I refused because of insurance/accident issues)- and some random guys whistling/"cat-calling" at me which made me feel so helpless and uncomfortable. 

Sometimes we have to go through some things alone- 

but with God

We are never alone.

Through the whole experience, I know that God's hand was over my life. Even though this experience happened I felt so blessed to be alive- and I felt so thankful more than ever for my great Lord and Savior. 

--So I got home--

And I didn't want to go anywhere- I didn't want to get back into the car- I didn't want to get back on to the interstate- I didn't want to go to the city- I didn't want to go to the conference-

But thanks and "non-thanks" to my mother and cousin- I did go. And it was something that I now look back on and am really grateful that I did. I needed the refreshment from the Lord. I'll never forget walking into the big auditorium for the conference and they were playing this song:


:The message spoken was about Peter seeing Jesus walk on water- and at first Peter noticed it was Jesus and he went out to him walking on the water- but then Peter feared because the wind and waves were all around him. Peter let the fear of what was around Him make him begin to sink- but then of course Jesus reached out and caught him. Hearing this message, made me think back on my situation that had literally just occured and it encouraged me to believe in the truth. Honestly, I wasn't afraid at the time because I felt covered by the love of God- but it was the events and the surroundings that occured afterwards that made me afraid. It encouraged me to have faith in the knowledge of what God had revealed to me about the situation. For some reason, though the circumstances seemed bad around, I had peace on the inside- and I needed to keep that. Jesus is always faithful to us- we need to keep our faith in His promises. He will open our eyes so we can see the situation from His eyes instead of our own.