Emma Jane Austen & Today

Being a woman, who has lived and have seen not anything much new that anyone else who ever lived and have seen before- has allowed me to find the "pleasure" if you may call it such, of having the privilege of having Jane Austen quote a portion of the trials of my mind to the world.

Please enjoy: a portion of Emma - by Jane Austen
& a portion of my feelings.

"A man," said he, "must have a very good opinion of himself when he asks people to leave
their own fireside, and encounter such a day as this, for the sake of coming to see him. He must
think himself a most agreeable fellow; I could not do such a thing. It is the greatest
absurdity—Actually snowing at this moment!— The folly of not allowing people to be
comfortable at home—and the folly of people's not staying comfortably at home when they
can! If we were obliged to go out such an evening as this, by any call of duty or business, what
a hardship we should deem it;—and here are we, probably with rather thinner clothing than
usual, setting forward voluntarily, without excuse, in defiance of the voice of nature, which
tells man, in every thing given to his view or his feelings, to stay at home himself, and keep all
under shelter that he can;—here are we setting forward to spend five dull hours in another
man's house, with nothing to say or to hear that was not said and heard yesterday, and may not
be said and heard again to-morrow. Going in dismal weather, to return probably in
worse;—four horses and four servants taken out for nothing but to convey five idle, shivering
creatures into colder rooms and worse company than they might have had at home"
Emma by Jane Austen p 137 chapter XIII (13)

The Housewife; or The Muse Learning to Ride the Great Horse Heroic. BY: ELIZABETH MOODY

O thou that with deciding voice oft sways
...



DEAR MARY EL.... I can't find an online copy of this and it will take me a while to type out.. but please look this poem up and if you can't find it i'll type it up or take a picture...

Drugs

Dear God,

Why do people take drugs? I mean, I know why people take drugs. I guess for different reasons probably. Most people take drugs because they get a high off of drugs. Well, Jesus, it’s hard to compete with drugs. I mean, people take drugs and they are out of their minds. People kill other people, some people just have “fun” but it’s dangerous God.. but they don’t even see it. They are killing themselves just as much as they are killing others. It’s crushing to see them destroy the lives of those around us. Today, more than ever (it seems anyway) that people are giving up their children. Some in part is natural consequences due to drugs, other times it’s different reasons. I don’t know what people are living for anymore. People can’t find a purpose in this life and they are destroying themselves and others. How can you help us God? How can you help us turn them toward your face?

Seek Wisdom.

²⁰ Wisdom crieth without; she uttereth her voice in the streets:

²¹ She crieth in the chief place of concourse, in the openings of the gates: in the city she uttereth her words, saying,

²² How long, ye simple ones, will ye love simplicity? and the scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge?

²³ Turn you at my reproof: behold, I will pour out my spirit unto you, I will make known my words unto you.

²⁴ Because I have called, and ye refused; I have stretched out my hand, and no man regarded;

²⁵ But ye have set at nought all my counsel, and would none of my reproof:

²⁶ I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when your fear cometh;

²⁷ When your fear cometh as desolation, and your destruction cometh as a whirlwind; when distress and anguish cometh upon you.

²⁸ Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer; they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me:

²⁹ For that they hated knowledge, and did not choose the fear of the LORD:

³⁰ They would none of my counsel: they despised all my reproof.

³¹ Therefore shall they eat of the fruit of their own way, and be filled with their own devices.

³² For the turning away of the simple shall slay them, and the prosperity of fools shall destroy them.

³³ But whoso hearkeneth unto me shall dwell safely, and shall be quiet from fear of evil.

 

Proverbs 1:20-33

Nine Year Old Diary

Greater and Grander

 

 

     Today, I am going to show to you something personal. Well, it's not personal anymore but at one time, it was very personal and very exciting.

 

 

 

Courtney: 7 days after my 9 birthday.

 

 

I had my friend Jacob come over! he's the most boy I like. He's so cute! I love you. See you later. Bekki hurt her arm! Goodbye Diary.

 

 

My other sweetie came over. His name is Seth. I love you Seth. Love sweetie Seth. Hehehe. bye bye

I like Taylor too!

 

 

This amazes me that at nine years old I had such a mystical world. It's interesting how your thoughts really do shape your life. I remember growing up and comparing and contrasting different boys- and later even men. Apparently, I just loved them all when I was younger- and I suppose when I'm older it's not a whole lot different. I have had to really fine tune myself over the years. What's interesting to me is that I never really described why I like them. I suppose I liked them because they were cute and nice to me. I suppose I also liked them because they liked me (as I heard). So, love is mutual- and interest is mutual. Even a very loveable person can become unlovable if they don't love you back.

 

Yet, when you are younger things just don't seem to click. Your mind is  like a gullible sponge. Every word is engrained into you like the salt in the ocean. It sticks with you, forever.. unless you realize it and can make a change..

 

Think about it ... one thought... that you have thought for a long time. You have no idea where it reall came from, but you think about it a lot and it's not good.

 

What is it? Bondage. You are tied to that one thought.

 

Well, for me, I've been tied to a lot of thoughts before- and they aren't true but I've been thinking about them so long I presume them to be- and I think about them so long- that they become a reality in my mind- but not in actual life.

 

I wish someone would have picked up my 9-12 year old diary and softly spoke wisdom into my heart. I wonder what kind of person I would have grown into being- not on the outside- but on the inside. I wonder how many foolish relationships I could have avoided if I would have understood that I'm not lonely- I am pretty- I don't need someone to "like me" and my parents still love me even if they yell at about things.

 

 

So, although many times are passed that time. I guess I realize where these things came from. It's a state of mind- so I think it's recognizing it and trying to move past it and praying about it.

 

I wish I would have listened to the wisdom my parents gave me instead of pushing it out the window.

 

 

*lesson learned*

YES FOR ROADTRIPS!

Obviously, as seen from my last couple blog posts, I had the wonderful privilege of having one of my very dearest friends in the world, Mary Ellen, come and visit me at mi casa! :) We had such a grand time together. I am finally getting the wonderful pictures on here for your enjoyment!!

Mary Ellen and I visiting Robbie's school... this one was in the bathroom LOL

                                  

We had the privilege of getting together with our friend Brittany :) It was so fun to see her and chat it up!

Mary Ellen on the twisting staircase at Grohmann's Art Gallery Museum

Freedom!!

Beauty!!

The ceiling is painted with a beautiful mural! 

This is going to be Mary Ellen's new advertisement for her future company! Hehe :)

Guys making beer I believe- and of course Mary Ellen !

The coolest water bottles in the world.. one day I would love to have! Haha! You squeeze a lemon into them and it infuses your water! :)

Mary had many busy moments. Here she is probably conspiring on where to go next. LOL.

This is Ethan's guitar.. and a spill he made.

This is Ethan about to clean up the root-beer float spill he made.

This is a short action packed video of Ethan cleaning in motion.

This is Ethan's band, Dear Deadline! We'll go see him in Nashville someday.

Mary Ellen hard at work drawing the illustrations for our new children's book.

She's so kind as to take a picture in the midst of her work! P.S. Cheesecake is to the right.. and boy is it good!!!

Artistic Moments

I think I'm drawing or writing something here :)

Tadaaaaa. A great picture. :)

Overall, we had a fun trip- and the pictures merely capture any of the wonderful memories we had together! :) I can't wait until next time.

<3 <3 <3

Love Courtney

Speech Recognition Software

Today, I decided to try speech recognition software. 

I spoke into my computer, "Rudy is an American boy who follows ideals"... then my computer typed for me "Im is lowering the room when ready to add the egg noodles of an American"

In conclusion, I'm typing things by hand from now on. 

Pajamas are WORTH IT!!!

My mom got me this beautiful new comfy pajamas. 

I've been writing my research paper in them since I woke up today.

They literally are so amazing. 

The picture I posted is because I literally feel like I'm sitting out on one of those chairs in California, soaking up the evening and looking at a beautiful pool.

I FEEL AWESOME!!! 

Waiting for Mary Ellen

Mary Ellen has decided to come and visit me today!!!! I am so very excited!!! :) I am going to video her arrival so we can cherish this moment forever!!! Yay!!!

Always a Number to Call...

FOODS THAT HELP ME...

THINK CREATIVELY


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