Thursday, May 5, 2016

Seasons


Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
                                                       



Spring 

Winter 


Fall



Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Jesus is the Joy of the Living Alfred Ackley song and I am amazed song

Jesus is the Joy of the Living 
1 I have found a wondrous Saviour,
Jesus Christ, The Soul's Delight;
Ev'ry blessing of His favor
Fills my heart with hope so bright.
Chorus:
Jesus is the Joy of Living,
He's the Kng of Life to me;
Unto Him my all I'm giving,
His forevermore to be.
I will do what He commands me,
Anywhere He leads 'll go;
Jesus is the Joy of Living,
He's the dearest Friend I know.
2 Life is growing rich with beauty,
toil has lost its weary strain,
Now a halo crowns each duty,
And I sing a glad refrain. [Chorus]
3 Heav'nly wisdom He provides me,
Grace to keep my spirit free;
In His own sweet way he guides me
When the path I cannot see. [Chorus]
4 O what splendor, O what glory,
O what matchless pow'r divine,
Is the Christ of Gospel story,
Christ, the Saviour, who is mine. [Chorus]


I am amazed. 

我真希奇,神竟是道樣愛我—
盡是羞恥,滿有各樣罪過!
主名權能,使我得完全潔淨;
祂又召我走屬天的路程。
(副)我真希奇,神竟願意來救我,
十架功效竟能除我罪過!
因信基督,祂賜我永遠生命,
祂今居衷,永遠與我向行。
二 我真希奇,神竟降卑賜福我—
作神後嗣,承受恩典廣博!
祂為尋求祂者豫備福分,
直到祂完全估有我全人。
三 我真希奇,神竟樂賜我救恩,
甘願拯救一切求告的人!
藉此無比奇妙福音的傅揚,
永遠生命普及萬族、萬邦。

Kind of Translation: 

I'm amazed that God was actually kind of track I love -
Full of shame, full of all sorts of sin!
His name power, so I have to completely clean;
He has called me to go heavenly journey.
(Deputy) I'm amazed that God actually willing to save me,
In addition to the effectiveness of escape ten of my transgressions!
By faith in Christ, He gives me eternal life,
He now ranks Zhong, always with me to the line.
Two I really wondered, God has blessed me humble -
Heirs of God, to withstand extensive grace!
He shall prepare thy blessings to those who seek Him,
His perfect estimate until I have the whole person.
C I really wondered, God has given me salvation music,
Willing to save all that call on people!
Whereby the wondrous Gospel Fu Yang,
Universal life forever families 

Well.

You know, it's those moments in life where your head hits the floor- over and over again. The truth is- there is no motivating factor to get work done except just to do it. Lately, I haven't been motivated to do anything except to buy coffee to attempt to help me get through the rigorous work. Well, it seems that if I sit at my computer enough and drink enough coffee, I seem to start getting work done. I always expect to get a lot done- but the truth is sometimes thinking takes the most time of all. I guess I shouldn't be surprised- but sometimes I feel like I don't have time to think about these things- but then again- i don't have much time at all. 

Time. 

Time. 

Time. 

It all passes in time. 

Well, lately I've been kind of in a weird attitude. I am feeling weird because I found out I have that fibroma on my femural head- and it's painful- but you know- somedays I don't think it's too horrible. I just wish I could work out- I feel like I'm going to gain weight if I don't work out- and it really bothers me so then I don't want to eat- but if I don't eat then I can't focus on my work. 

Well, life is just complicated.

Complicated.

Complicated.

Complicated. 

It all passes, eventually, in time. 

So- I think there is light at the end of the tunnel. At least I hope so. I know that I need to get this work done, but it just feels like everytime I think about it- it's like a brick laid across my chest- and I can't breathe and I can't even do the work- well that's how I feel- and then I feel like I can't do it.
It's the first time I've felt like I can't do this. I don't know why I feel like it. 

Too many, expectations.

Expectations.

Expectations.

Expectations. 

They all pass, too, in time. 

Well, Time complications expectations and expectations complicate time. 

But what is it that we all want to pass- the feeling really. The feeling of confusion, of the unknowing, of the feeling that says I can't i can't i can't... that's what it is... 

It's the feelings we deal with that- that pushhhhhhhhhhhhhhh us forward
or h-o-l-d-u-s-b-a-c-k..........................

so

Well, I could use some pushing forward right now. I really could. I just have to wait on God- I just don't know what I'm supposed to be doing now. 

Life.

Life.

Life. 

Time.Complicated.Expectations.Life. 


Monday, March 28, 2016

Something More

Everyone wants something more in life. More money, more success, more peace, more relaxation, more freedom, more... 

Yet- it's in the time of more- that we stop and ask ourselves if we will ever truly be content. 
For when we receive more of something, we tend to talk about the things we wish we had more of. 
The truth is- in this life- we may have more and we may have less- we may be sick or we may be well- we may be lonely or we may have too many friends... 

but then we can remember the words of the apostle Paul who said, 

Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance andneed. I can do all things through him who strengthens me." Philipians 4:11-13
It's the strength of the Lord that helps us continue on in every circumstance. :) So, it's important to carry that joy with us in all moments. :) 
Still in verse 14 he goes on to say:
"Yet it was kind of you to share my trouble"- which I think speaks to how important it is to have supportive people in your life. God made us in a world of people for a reason. We don't have to be alone in our troubles, but if we do find ourselves feeling alone- we can know that Jesus is always with us- so we don't have to be on our own. ^^
Lately, I feel like I have been experiencing the meaning of the verse psalm 27:14 "Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!" 
Sometimes difficult times come, but if we wait on the Lord, he is sure to come through for us. ^^ Trusting him is the most important part- and waiting patiently. Waiting waiting on the Lord. 



Sunday, March 6, 2016

He is with us- Immanuel

Do we believe that Jesus is Lord over all? Do you believe that Jesus is the sovereign Lord in our lives, whom leads us and directs us into all truth- and the knowledge of him? Then, we need to stand upon his promises and trust his leading and direction in our life. Despite what other things may be swirling around us- we must remain firm and stand upon His promises. It's interesting that whenever Jesus is going to be doing something extraordinary in someone's life (for example, Mary and birth of Jesus, Hannah and birth of son... etc etc.) , Jesus always sends a word saying "Do not fear"- so if you are going through a circumstance in which you are experiencing something that may cause your heart to worry or fear- remember that Jesus is the sovereign Lord and He has extraordinary plans for your life- so instead of being tempted to worry- instead bring your concerns to the Lord and rest in His unfailing love and mercy that is comforting and abounding. He loves us with an everlasting love and He is sure to continue to guide our future. :)

*Rest in his peace and his great mercy and love today*


Monday, February 15, 2016

Potentially Potential Wasted Years

---I wrote this after being inspired by all my classmates and their comments they make toward college, classes, and assignments--- 


Potentially Potential Wasted Years


There’s something about college
That saddens my heart…
Pondering all the ways young people have so much potential
Yet, it all goes to waste as they sit in a single poorly backed chair
With their Hands sitting idle on a wooded desk.

I wonder.. what could you be?
If you weren’t sitting here next to me..
Listening to hours of theory
Stressing about the next paper

For now, I have a unique view
With only one college class
And the rest professional..
I realize the dread of it all…
As thousands of “kids”
Pour out their money
In ode to boredom, to stress, to nothing-
And I wonder is this education?

Saddened by this memoir
I attempt to think beyond
But honestly----
Able-bodied individuals
Becoming disabled and mentally strained adults
As they try to drain out the stress of unnecessary projects and reports
And fill the gap with drugs, alcohol and sex

Forgive me if I’m over-emphasizing
The life that really exists in college
90% of college is wasted waste
While 10% can be valued if one chooses to be determined

I wait for the day
When young adults will work
Not in desks and chairs, falling asleep
But working together to help humanity
Working together to change our streets, our economy
Focusing their thought and energy on skills and trade
And not in boring repetition
Over and over

Again.

Sunday, January 24, 2016

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Thursday, January 21, 2016

This Is Interesting Movie

                                

I like this movie, but I didn't finish it yet. I have to back to my homework.

P.S. I hope to put some good recipes on here soon, but I haven't had the time yet. :)

Merry Late Christmas/ Happy New Year

!! 2016 !!

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Update on Life! :)



Good Morning All! J Wake up and smell the fresh popping cranberries!

 Today, after being many inspired of great cranberry facts and stories, I decided to make some delicious cranberry sauce! I didn't realize how exciting, fun and easy making cranberry sauce could be!

1 Cup Water
1 Cup Sugar ---- Put in a pot and boil-
Then pour in the cranberries..wait until they all pop!
And then... stir stir - and let sit until cool and refrigerate!
 
And last.... Tadah! The beautiful cranberry sauce!!!
 
 
On a funnier and also sad note.... our basement freezer got unplugged and a ton of our meat/bread was ruined! My parents thought they might be able to save some and cook it, but being leery of food poisoning- they decided to just give it the dogs as snacks- here's what our house was like for a while though:
 
And this was the meat we just thought we might be able to save, we had to throw away a lot of other meat.. turkey... pork.. a huge ham. It was quite the riot!!!
 
Here's my cute mama and me! And tomorrow my brother is coming home from Uganda! Woo-hoo! :)
 
School is officially over; 9 classes..24 credits down the drain!!! This picture is of roses- I sent it to my grandpa for his baptism. I was inspired to draw it because I had this beautiful dream one night and I was driving through a beautiful area and every tree had pink roses and they were all falling to the ground and they were everywhere... I found out my grandpa loves roses so I sent him this picture.
 
 
Here's a picture of me at the mall- my mom and I did a bit of Black Friday shopping, but we didn't go out until later on. :)
 
 
And here's my dog to say goodnight to you all.
 


Saturday, December 5, 2015

Sparkly text YAY


Today I learned how to run/record a macro all by myself (and via help of the internet); and I was able to find this AWESOME text I used to write with all the time… IT HAS SPARKLES!!!!!!!!!!!!! J It was an exciting adventure…. Guess I know a little more about computer science than I thought. ;D !!!!! However; the only downside is.. that I don't know how to carry it over to other documents like this blogpost for example.

Here's the macro: :)

Sub AnimateFont()
 Dim sAnimation As String
     If Len(Selection.Range) = 0 Then
         MsgBox "Select text first!", vbCritical, "No Text Selected"
         Exit Sub
     End If
     sAnimation = InputBox("Which animation? Enter the number: " & vbCr & _
                           " 1. Blinking Background" & vbCr & _
                           " 2. Las Vegas Lights" & vbCr & _
                           " 3. Marching Black Ants" & vbCr & _
                           " 4. Marching Red Ants" & vbCr & _
                           " 5. Shimmer" & vbCr & _
                           " 6. Sparkle Text" & vbCr & _
                           " 0. None", "Font animation")
     Select Case sAnimation
         Case 1: Selection.Font.Animation = wdAnimationBlinkingBackground
         Case 2: Selection.Font.Animation = wdAnimationLasVegasLights
         Case 3: Selection.Font.Animation = wdAnimationMarchingBlackAnts
         Case 4: Selection.Font.Animation = wdAnimationMarchingRedAnts
         Case 5: Selection.Font.Animation = wdAnimationShimmer
         Case 6: Selection.Font.Animation = wdAnimationSparkleText
         Case 0: Selection.Font.Animation = wdAnimationNone
         Case Else:
     End Select
 End Sub

 
These are my favorite words to a particular song called "Your Words". :)



Your words bring us

love that never fails

Everything else will fade away

But your words

Here's the video in case you want to hear the whole song:)

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

InterVarsity :)

Fall Conference :)
 
Intervarsity Fall Conference was absolutely ... amazing... crazy... tiring. Mostly exhausting and full of new friendships. :) One of the best things about InterVarsity Christian Fellowship is how they love and connect with Christians from all over the world. :) <3 :) So, I've met with some amazing people here.  
 
 
Here are my friends, we are friends from Pakistan, Brazil, Indonesia and America. :)
 

In far left is Emily- and then my other friends too. Emily and Estu both were in my senior group about calling. They were great partners to talk with about life and calling. :)
& my other girl friends here I met because Estu told me they couldn't go swimming and I just happened to have an extra swimsuit for both of them :) So, they are wonderful, so kind.
The best thing I remember when Emily (because there are two Emily's) was on the elevator with me and our other friend and the baby was hiding her face because she was scared of us. and she touched her arm- and said, "We are same". She said she wanted her to know that we are the same, so it's not to be scared. I think this is so beautiful. She's right too. We are same. :)

 

Woodie on the far right is Haitian :) He's an awesome guy; and he really loves the Lord- I'm glad I got to meet with him. He really has a passion for serving God and studying His word.

This is Estu- he's so much fun :)! He has a very kind spirit- and he offered to hold things for me a lot of times, which I thought was very kind. :) I think he is very strong and brave person. I look forward to hopefully meeting with him again, and I want to go visit in Indonesia; it looks like such a beautiful country. :)

This is Robbie and Shina- we are at the photo booth :) Here obviously. You know Robbie of course, and Shina is a girl from my chapter. She's really awesome :) We had a lot of fun getting to know one another more. :)

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Remains of a Lifelong Friend


Strange to think that’s all that could be left of a person,

A gold and silver banded watch,

A pair of circular specs, scratched on the left eye,

That’s all.

The watch was stopped in place.

Hour, minute, second hand-

Frozen,

Just frozen,

In a state where time stops.

Similar to the situation she was in prior to death,

Alzheimer’s; memory loss.

Time frozen,

Stuck in time,

Stuck in moments.

Stuck living in death;

Yet raised now to life.

Monday, October 19, 2015

Swept Under the Rug

Living life as normal
yet mind spinning off
trying to follow the Lord's will
but my heart is wanderin' off.

I try to reign it back in
but I can't do it by myself
I need to be cleansed within
My heart is peeling thin

Like a jab in the side
Bleeding memories flowing out
Taunting memories screaming out
Stop, stop, stop

Jesus I need that blood
That flowing fresh, cleansing blood
Pour over my life
Wash me clean, accepting a new script

Not jus going to be saying lines on my own anymore
Play director changed my part
I ain't who I used to play
I got a redeemer who has changed my heart

Thanks God for your love oh Lord
No where to go without you Oh Lord
Calling upon your name Oh Lord
Refresh these broken bones O Lord.

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Life is Like a Corn Maze Courtney Dunn


Life is Like a Corn Maze

You start at the beginning

Free and fresh

Confident and whole

You have people surrounding you

You think you are all on the same path, the same journey, to escape the maze, or achieve the prize at the end.

But as you go inside the maze, someone takes a turn.

You have a choice to make. Do I follow them, or do I stay with the majority of the group?

Uncertain, you pick one or the other; you are thinking it probably doesn’t matter.

Then as you wander along, like the blind leading the blind, another turns another way. Again, the choice is presented; you think “What should I do?” Things aren’t that serious, so you

stay with the group, you wander alone together, you are safe, you think, and we are together. Yet, slowly one by one the group depreciates. Will you ever make it to the end you wonder?

The maze starts to get tiring.

You wander off by yourself.

You look back but there’s no one around you. No one followed you. You panic, you run around trying to find someone, somewhere.

 There’s no one. You sit down in the corn and you think to yourself… “How did I get to a place where I didn’t want to be?” You think harder, you just followed them all. You never stood up and made a choice. So you were left to wander, wander around, following until you were so weary you became a wanderer. There’s hope for you yet. Maybe you can find someone that can help guide you through. Yet, there’s no one in sight.

This is what life is like. A lot of people here, stuff in the middle of a corn maze, no one left beside them, except people who will come and go. I heard an expression today, “Since I didn’t feel like shooting bull, I decided to stay home”. This is what life is like to a lot of people. A bunch of bull, people saying things they don’t really understand or mean or care about- and then other people following those lies until they are all lost in a pile of bull in the middle of a corn field, separated alone. Who’s the man now, when you are lost in a maze? The fact is, you are lost, it doesn’t matter how man you are in the middle of a maze. You are lost, like a pilgrim on the middle of an ocean hoping for someone to spot land in a crowded ship. No one knows the way to go.

In life though, there’s something that can change all that. Like Jesus coming down. I’m serious; he’ll shine right down within your heart.

 He’ll light your way- purpose for every step in the maze. All of a sudden, life ain’t such a maze anymore. You are running into people again, but this time you aren’t thinking about yourself. You aren’t thinking about how you are going to get out. Your eyes are on the light of Christ; all of a sudden you look around, lost in the moment, people are following you. It’s not the same feeling you had at the beginning, when you felt so lost, now you and the people have a purpose. They can feel within their bones. They feel it within themselves because the purpose isn’t about getting out of the maze like you thought it was. The purpose is in Christ, who has set his hand in all things over all creation.

Finally, you exit the maze. You shout for joy, but you realized that the joy is just getting started because the moment you thought you figured something out, everything changes.

 

Thus says the Lord:

“Cursed is the man who trusts in man
and makes flesh his strength,
whose heart turns away from the Lord.
He is like a shrub in the desert,
and shall not see any good come.
He shall dwell in the parched places of the wilderness,
in an uninhabited salt land.

Blessed is the man, who trusts in the Lord,

Whose trust is the Lord.
He is like a tree planted by water,
that sends out its roots by the stream,
and does not fear when heat comes,
for its leaves remain green,
and is not anxious in the year of drought,
for it does not cease to bear fruit.”

The heart is deceitful above all things,
and desperately sick;
who can understand it?
“I the Lord search the heart
and test the mind,b
to give every man according to his ways,
according to the fruit of his deeds.”

Jeremiah 17:5-10

Hungry Roads of Haiti Courtney Dunn


Hungry Roads of Haiti

In a small village,

Located on the Western part of Hispaniola;

 There’s an island;

Just off the Atlantic Ocean and the Caribbean Sea.

 

80% of people here

Rural and poor

Landless fishermen and landless farmers

Sink deeper into death each day

 

Zooming in from afar,

A plane snaps a video of a lady.

She is bent over scooping together

Clods of wet mud.

 

Curious.

The pilot flies in;

Lands his plane,

Approaches the woman.

 

What are you making he asks?

As he thinks inside his head

Of pottery or bricks

Or beautiful sculptures that can be dried in the sun.

 

Food she says.

Surprised, he inquires where she will get it.

She looks down motioning to her formations she has made out of dirt.

Pilot, still confused, asks again.

 

Disheartened, she stoops low,

Until her hands meet the red dirt,

As she continues to form a circular glob of wet dust

As she gains the strength to say:

 

“Labou Sa a se manje m 'yo.”

This mud is my food.

Startled, the pilot looks down again,

As her food dries in the Haitian sun.

 

Not knowing what to say,

The Pilot walks away,

As her dinner bell rings:

 Dirt split in halves down the center.

 

Friday, October 9, 2015

Never Saw it Coming

I never would have saw myself
Sitting here in an office
writing papers..
getting a degree in education.

I never would have saw it
because it wasn't in my plans.
or my dreams.
or my hopes.

Yet, I never would have saw this.
I'm sitting in an office.
An office that has signs labled
"God, Pray, Tell, Give, Peace"
filled with information about God.

I guess I never would have saw myself
Sitting and ministering to a college campus
And as I sit and think about it all
I'm pretty amazed.

I guess I'm not so alone after all.
Even in a building that can feel so empty,
God will send people in at the randomest times.
Like right now, a friend stopped in.
Having people in life makes everything so much more enjoyable.
I don't think I could do all that I do today without God and his wonderful people.

:)